Theology Test

Fiuh... I took test from this web
http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=43870

The result is surprising. I took this test few years a go. I think I was a fundamentalist/Neo-Orthodox at that time. Time changes, theological view changes, but scary 100% >.<


What's your theological worldview?
You scored as a Reformed Evangelical
You are a Reformed Evangelical. You take the Bible very seriously because it is God's Word. You most likely hold to TULIP and are sceptical about the possibilities of universal atonement or resistible grace. The most important thing the Church can do is make sure people hear how they can go to heaven when they die.
Reformed Evangelical
100%
Neo orthodox
82%
Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan
71%
Fundamentalist
68%
Roman Catholic
46%
Emergent/Postmodern
43%
Classical Liberal
36%
Charismatic/Pentecostal
32%
Modern Liberal
29%

Scary Experience

I was walking alone to buy my lunch outside. I have to walk about 2 bus stops away. When I reached the bus stop, there's one Indian guy called me.

Guy: Excuse Me
Me: Ya?
Guy: You know what, you are a very lucky guy. You know why? (His sharp eyes stared at me)
Me (just left without saying anything)

One thing I always kept thinking negative about that person. Feeling that I would be hypnotized etc. My brother experienced it once before. Soon after that, I'm feeling dizzy, but don't know whether it's due to tiredness or psychological reason. Then, I called Alen hahaha in case I have to meet the person again! Duh... It's a long story deh, until I asked my friend to accompany me back to office.

One thing learnt from this experience. We always think that we are safe enough in Singapore. However, actually we do not know how often we faced danger every day!! But God's hand always beside us. We should be really thankful for His providence.

God Enables Me

Fiuhhh... Last Saturday mellow-ness... I was in MRT thinking about why I chose Remaja... Am I suitable enough? Am I competent enough? Am I mature enough? All the questions lead to a 'NO' answer.

I would never be good enough, I would never be strong enough, I would never be mature enough to be their pembina. But one thing that I know, whenever God entrusted me, He will always enables me. He will also prepare my heart, mind, and attitude to be seen or read by others.

2Kor 3:3
Karena telah ternyata, bahwa kamu adalah surat Kristus, yang ditulis oleh pelayanan kami, ditulis bukan dengan tinta, tetapi dengan Roh dari Allah yang hidup, bukan pada loh-loh batu, melainkan pada loh-loh daging, yaitu di dalam hati manusia.

1Kor 15:10
Tetapi karena kasih karunia Allah aku adalah sebagaimana aku ada sekarang, dan kasih karunia yang dianugerahkan-Nya kepadaku tidak sia-sia. Sebaliknya, aku telah bekerja lebih keras dari pada mereka semua; tetapi bukannya aku, melainkan kasih karunia Allah yang menyertai aku.

A Day to Remember

A year a go, and a year to go...
I am thankful for the past, but don't know the future...
I am praying for what's best, not what's good...
I am considering future while remembering the past...
God made memory to recall His kindness...
God made this day so I can praise Him...

21-02-2008

Happiness is the Lord!!

There is no secret that most of mankind goal is to be happy.. When we talked about happiness, some relate it to contentment.. One could be happy if he satisfies with his current condition.. However, what we see now, people are not satisfied with what they are.. They always expect to be better than today.. Rich people want to get richer, powerful people want to get more power and so on..

In contrast, when we see village people, some of them satisfy with their condition although they are not rich.. They live a simple life.. What makes a man happy? According to Westminster Confession of Faith, the ultimate happiness of man if he can enjoy the source of happiness.. Man gains ultimate happiness by enjoying the ultimate being.. *Read chapter 1 Westminster Confession of Faith*

If we satisfy with our money and power, don't forget they can be gone.. They are temporary.. How if we satisfy with God, the source of wealth, power, happiness, etc? We can't find any reason for not to be happy.. Why men grumble? Why men self pity themselves? I think the answer because they are not satisfied with themselves.. Why they are not satisfied with their condition? It is because they are not satisfied with God who gives the condition or lets something happen to them..

Every man problem is a spiritual problem.. This sentence needs to be clarified further, but I am standing on this point.. Whatever human problem is actually because they are not content with God.. Atheist adalah orang yang paling nggak content with God (I can't translate this >.<).. How is the practice to be content with God? Start with thanksgiving for what He has given to you.. A writer said even though God did not give anything (cloth, money, intelligence,etc.) to you, it doesn't make Him a 'bad God'.. He's still good for us since He has sacrificed His own Son.. That sacrifice cannot be compared by others grace.. If God gives us love, money, power, intelligence, that's a bonus.. Actually we are not deserved.. So, learn to be thankful..

Let go and let God

New year mode!!.. Really want to relax and enjoy holiday.. I watched Freedomland just now.. It's kinda boring actually.. but I managed to finish that movie.. It tells story about a mom who lost his child, and the main character Samuel Jackson told her, sometimes we have to just let go and let God..

It's one of the answer for my previous post.. How to release from keterikatan? Probably you have to let it go and let God.. We could not forget what happened in past.. Somebody told me, that she can forgive her friend, but could not forget what her friend did.. Jesus never taught us to forget 'our enemies sin', but to love 'our enemies'.. Of course it's easier to forgive and forget.. However, our memories will still exist and that's the challenge for Christian to forgive.. It's impossible for us to forget a terrible thing that happened.. Our memories also 'prove' there is eternity indeed.. Therefore, forgiving is also in a process of time..

When we forgived others, it is probably not a 'complete forgiving'.. Our forgiving attitude and heart has to be sanctified day by day.. Have you experienced when let say you have forgived someone, but in the next days you remind him about his mistake? Or you forgived him yesterday, but hate him today? Forgiveness is a process since we are not perfect.. Therefore, we should learn humbly to forgive others..

My Biggest Sin

I'm confused now.I have been overwhelmed with this thought for few days. I think it has taken a big chunk of my life nowadays. When Ko Billy said every person has "keterikatan", I also have this kind of keterikatan. Ko Billy said his keterikatan is that he always wanted to continue his study in Germany, which he is doing right now.

I think keterikatan proves that I don't depend on Him. I can't enjoy the freedom that He has given and prefer to be bounded by something else. It's one of worst sin for Christian when keterikatan becomes your idol, which I think it's the case for me.

I'm in the state of refusing to let it go, I have hopes and dreams about it. I'm praying for His answer. I know that for every answer that He would give me, it would be very difficult for me. Am I ready to sacrifice? I still can't escape from my keterikatan, from my past, from the thought of my future. I think this is one of my "worst sin", I cannot escape from idolatry, I keep doing this although I know it's wrong. Forgive me, Lord. Let me surrender to Your will. Amen.