mixed feeling

Let's talk back about exactly a week a go, it was my birthday. I was still working as usual, my friend and I were having lunch @ Fish n Co Jurong Point. When we came back, we heard a shocking new. My fellow colleague passed away in an accident that morning. Since then,I cannot concentrate on my work,I have mixed feeling,might be worst birthday so far.

I was reminded again by the reflections and thoughts I had in the previous week. Life is indeed so short,it's fragile. He's not yet 25, but within few days, he's not around us anymore. Every moment you see a person might be the last chance. Let's be more sensitive to every opportunity that God gives us.

Proverbs 25

As usual, near birthday I will read Proverbs according to my age. Since I'm going to 25, I read Prov 25.

Verses that I notify most: verse 11 27 28.
Roma 14:8
Sebab jika kita hidup, kita hidup untuk Tuhan, dan jika kita mati, kita mati untuk Tuhan. Jadi baik hidup atau mati, kita adalah milih Tuhan.

chemistry and ministry

Some define chemistry : Chem is try. It's true that chemistry involves a lot of trial error and experiments.

How about ministry? Is it based on trying? I would rather used word "calling" than trying.

actor get sacked for his principle

http://ibtimes.com.au/articles/20100403/neal-mcdonough-fired-from-tv-job-after-refusing-sex-scenes.htm

Can see from the link, an actor (Neal McDonough) was fired after refusing to do sex scene. Not many people choose beliefs/faith compared to money. Another actor that I knew having same principle is James Caviezel (Passion of Christ). They are both devout catholic and I admire them for their principle.

Heaven is not on earth (a birthday reflection)

I will be officially 25 in few days time. I have reflected for the past weeks a lot, not necessarily related to this, but somehow it's connected. Yesterday, I was almost hit by a car. I was calling my friend and did not see the traffic light is red for pedestrian. I just crossed the road happily and realized only after a car honked at me. Fiuh, luckily I was safe. I really thanked God for letting me pass that moment.

It is also related to what I have reflected previous week. Everytime a Christian celebrates birthday, the first sentence is "I thank God that I have been living for xx years". Not that I'm not thankful enough, but I'm afraid that I really love "the world" that I do not want death/heaven more than this earth. The heaven is not on earth! Many Christians try to make earth as their heaven. May be I too do not miss heaven as I'm very comfortable here.

As I'm turning to 25, may I struggle more than I should. My struggle is that I never struggle enough, in working life, ministry, family, calling, life partner. These few days or weeks have been very blessing since I reflected a lot, but not all of them I can remember.